Yep, I'm preggas! Up the duff. Bun in the oven. All of that. Phew.
Hence the absence of posts and, to be honest, the absence of much new on our Monti shelf. But I'm starting to feel a bit more energy so I may start posting a bit more as I go along...or not. My energy has moved in different ways since being pregnant with different priorities and focuses coming forth and I have been following them - as I needed to.
My sickness has mainly been in the evening and has been difficult to deal with emotionally. And to be honest I also think I had a mild case of antenatal depression. I write this because I think its so important to share our stories, especially when you are expected to only feel a certain way.
I have already gone on a big journey of reflection and I believe while the depression and freak out (despite G and I planning to be pregnant by the end of the year!) is a combination of various things, but that the central part comes from fear and emotional residue from a difficult first year with my little girl. We came through and we are fabulous, but the first year was hard for both of us. It was not the image you see on the motherhood posters and it was a shock - obviously one still in my body and coming up again. I am seeing my kinesologist soon which I know will help - she is fabulous - and look forward to coming to a place of balance and peace with this issue.
But apart from that things have been fun - we have been on holiday (our first time camping), laughing lots, singing songs, cuddling, swimming in the ocean and dancing around the house. Little Bird is wonderful and tiring and I cant help sneaking in to her bedroom every night to watch her sleep in her lovely new big bed. (:
Anyway, I wanted to just pop in and say hi, I'm ok, I'm pregnant and I am looking forward to catching up with you all along the way.
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